When all you want to do is bounce...

I learned at a very young age that life was always going to be full of really hard times... And a lot of pain. I thank all my lucky stars that I had such positive influences present in my life. Without a certain group of people I would have never been able to see the amazing sunshine in the world. These influences gave me the power to learn that there was better things in the world that outweighed the horrible things I endured as a child. It was those "things" that first brought the concept of "armor" into my life. I had to protect myself at all costs. Most of my adult life I have been wearing armor made of steel. As life has progressed and I've grown into an adult I realized that armor only harms you as well. Your so afraid of all the things the "could" happen that you never fully allow anyone in. This is where I realize the mistake I have been making most of my life. 

I had to change the armor. My old armor was holding me back too much. I have decided that the only type of armor I need is made of rubber. Rubber is a material that is still very strong but has the ability to move, and even break or tear. Rubber is also "fixable." All you need is a strong enough patch to mend the imperfection. My rubber may be strong from all that I have endured but my rubber is still vulnerable. The only way to give love and to receive love is by vulnerability. You just have to find comfort that your armor is strong. Through each storm that comes along... You can always repair your armor. 

I've spent my days covering my body in rubber... That way when I do get knocked down, or thrown against the walls... I will always have the ability to bounce back up. 

This is how you learn to love, learn to live, and learn to let people in. Your still safe because you always know you can mend your armor, and still bounce back.