Honestly I have never questioned my own happiness. I am well aware of all the beautiful traits I have to offer myself and anyone else. A good job. A roof over my head. Two adorable babies that pick me up anytime I'm feeling down. I love with all of me and to the greatest extent that I am capable of. I care about other people's feelings. I love watching others grow into better people. I love to laugh and smile and see the world as a beautiful place.
What disappoints me about myself is the fact that I let myself stay on this emotional roller coaster. For what? Just to feel the pain day in and day out? I'm stronger than this bullshit I am being put through. I'm smarter than being strung along like my feelings and my love is a quality you think you can just play with. I'm coming up to my breaking point. The point where there is no fucking returning. I'm better than this situation my life is in.
Cancer tried to knock me down off my pedestal... If I didn't let that happen... I certainly am not going to let you knock me off my pedestal. I don't care how high I put myself in this world... Someone will be strong enough to handle me.
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